Happy Memories Project

Flipping through photos that make me smile. Such great joy being alive!

Spectrum of Love

It pains me to death seeing you drifting away. The purest form of pain. Pain that consumes all that I am. Pain I cannot describe. Twisting and aching tears risen up my eyes blurring the sight of you so far away.

Does it hurt you so much being by my side?

All that I yearn for is the past so long lost. Please don't go. Don't go...

Doing all I could to have you back, I have not realised the you in front of me now have turned so cold and lonesome. I cry and cry. Cry and cry. These silent violent tears. I cannot stop crying.

I turned and walked away. Little did I know, it pains you too.

And just as much.

Ocean Waves

Standing at water edge, looking out into the vast sparkling golden glow. Peaceful and calming. High school heartaches, good old days.

I just watched Ocean Waves. A story about a Tokyo girl transferred to a country town, with her broken family, stirring up feelings from a couple of best friends. And with the misunderstanding of young vanity, all drifted apart, only to slowly grow into accepting their stubbornness years later in their high school reunion. Nice warm feeling, in a beautiful country setting, full of light and calming self-reflecting scenes. This is what I love about Japanese movies and anime. The simplicity and easy flow of youth is smoothly portrayed in yet another extraordinary production from Studio Ghibli.

Winter freezes on the tip of my nose. I sit on my balcony, snuggle up and dream about my school days. First love.

The Departures and coffee tales

I watched The Departures yesterday. Beautiful scenes, calm and enlightening. It portrays a casketing person's job - clean the bodies, dress, make-up, the rituals - with lots of spiritual and emotional sides of parting and sending the loved ones into their next life.

When I was younger, thought of death often came with self awareness, of questions like who I really am, what I will be doing when I die, will I just gonna lay there to eternity, and that such.. and to be honest, to me, a very scary thought. Gradually the reality of death started to sink in, and I accepted the fact that I, like everyone else, will die.

However this movie, among some others, gives a very nice and light feeling towards moving forwards into that certain path. Life certainly is a gift not to be wasted.

Today I ventured out into the dark cold night, wearing three layers of clothing, just to buy a Chatime brown rice drink. While waiting for my drink to be made, I flipped through some Chinese magazine and saw a seem-to-be-awesome-coffee shop. It calls Ampersand Cafe Bookstore, in Paddington. Beautiful interior. The coffee is said to be good too. It will be very very nice if they let me read their books while drinking coffee. So I am planning a weekend visit to the cafe soon. This is how it looks inside.

Winter pampering

WINTER TREATMENT:

Daily: body lotion after hot shower, facial toner, eye cream, facial essence, anti-wrinkle, and hydration emulsion, fish oil, morning primrose oil, hot tea (I keep telling myself to restrain from drinking too much near sleep, for my face turns very puffy the next day).

Weekly: facial mask, hair mask, nail buffing, warm feet bath in lemon grass oil.

Monthly: Lemongrass facial steam.

WINTER ENTERTAINING:

Daily: watch anime in bed, read books in toilet, listen to music while cooking, kiss anytime.

Weekly: dinner sessions with friends, girly accessories window-shopping, sipping chai latte in coffee shop reading magazine.

Monthly: movie in the city.

WINTER TO-DO:

Daily: remember to take care of myself, smile more, say thank you.

Weekly: try to touch my borrowed books before forgetting to return to library on time, call parents, get in touch with sister, learn some language (Japanese at the moment, Breeze into Japanese by Kazuko Imaeda so far proves to be the best Japanese self-teach book), learn some Actuarial for this year exam (again!)

Monthly: have I done everything I love whenever possible? - dress up, cook up, write, draw, watch anime, watch scary Korean thriller, watch warm feeling Japanese, say I LOVE YOU...